it becomes the topic of discussion amongst other people.
for example "you'll never believe what happened to cassie, it sucks so bad, but seriously it's kinda funny."
what?!
i know they mean no harm, but that is just proof that my life is a serious joke.
things that happen to me do not happen to normal people.
i mean i'm sure a lot of the things that have happened to me have happened to other people, but you will never find someone who has had as many of these ridiculous things happen to them as have happened to me.
one week.
a lot can happen in one week.
for instance.
i can decide i'm moving on from the little one.
start to enjoy life, go out be with friends, be carefree.
then on thursday i meet someone, he's pretty cool.
kayley and i are out at the bars with martin and lane, and we meet these two guys.
things go well, we go back to my place and drink a little more.
we hang out all night, it's good.
go visit him at work the next day, to prove i wouldn't sleep all day.
see him that night through some ridiculous way.
says he will be out later, he comes out.
we hang out all night again.
it goes really well.
we decide we're going to hang out later this week.
texts me saturday.
texts me sunday.
things are going really well.
i can't believe it.
we're going to hang out wednesday.
text him monday, it goes well.
text him last night.
not so well.
it seems 'the powers at be have decided we can not hang out'.
i was connected to his job about three years ago, when he did not work there, and the head honchos think that we shouldn't be hanging out.
basically they told him don't hang out with her or you are fired.
what?!?!?!
come on!
things like this don't happen to people, just me.
we're both pretty bummed, more me i imagine, only because it felt nice for things to be going good.
we're going to try and be friends, we will see how that goes.
i'm just so upset, i can't believe that this is happening.
and to make things worse.
yesterday the young one and i had a chat.
he 'hasn't forgotten about me'.
he's been busy, as soon as he moves things will be different.
blah blah.
i don't even know right now.
i just want to scream.
and cry.
i hate my life.